Where does one start again?

How do we pick up the pieces of broken best intentions and face reality?

Best Intention: “Your goal, purpose, or aim is your intention. It’s something you mean to do, whether you pull it off or not. You may have the best intention of cooking an incredible meal, but if you leave the burner on and burn the house down, you will not be remembered as an excellent chef.”

Best Intention. A nice way to justify oneself or situation. Guilty as charged! Yes, that’s me. Let’s be real. We all have best intentions. Some just have better discipline than others. That’s where I am. I’m having to learn to find balance in life and discipline. I’m tired of my intentions being just “best”. I’m ready for my intentions to become actions. Speaking from the heart y’all — an open book.

Here’s where I’m at: <insert justifications here> . I absolutely love blogging! But my life is very busy and honestly I wouldn’t want it any other way. I love all the things that I get to do and be apart of everyday. I miss blogging often. I miss reselling and vlogging cooking sessions with my husban•deedo. All these have the best intentions. It’s just not been happening lately and that’s okay. I’m still here; living my best life! Just not feeling it as important to share as much in this season. Instead I have found myself pouring more of my energy into other things. I have been enjoying myself.

Taking breaks from Social Media, blogging, vlogging, or whatever your best intentions are is okay.

It doesn’t mean you’re a failure.

Sometimes I feel like so many times we don’t give ourselves enough credit for what we are actually doing best! You find where your energy is needed most in your season and you put your all into it. See what you can grow and nurture.

Some of the best things in life are unseen. That’s why we close our eyes when we kiss, laugh, and dream.

Or shall I say, What we don’t post on social media? There is such a persona of what must be seen and what must not be seen. Sometimes the best things are being enjoyed so much that we take it all in for ourselves. That’s okay. Not everything has to be posted on social media folks. It’s not a competition. It’s life.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. You do you because no one can do you better than yourself.

If you are able to do all the things, then do em! If you don’t necessarily feel like it’s where your energy needs to be at the time, then that’s okay too!

Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

Philippians 4:11

People do what they want. Yes. True. But sometimes just because we haven’t doesn’t mean we don’t want to. The idea is there. The want to is there. It’s just not the right time. When the time feels right, go for it! Balance. Focus on the most important things in life first and then all the extra “want to’s” just because come after.

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Okay, now that my “justifications” are spilled, let me share my plans and ideas (and a random photo of Brayleigh Mae and I.)

I plan to start blogging more again. It will not be as often as it has been in the past but that’s okay. That was then; this is now. I plan to get more active in my reselling. It will just be a really small, side hustle — nothing serious. I’m only thinking small so I won’t be setting myself up for failure. I plan to become more active in my Simply Lena’s Instagram and be more consistent with my content. I have been revamping my ideas of content to make it more manageable but also more “real”. I know what it’s like to be scrolling through feed and see posts that make you feel like you’re house is ugly, the way you decorate or dress is so out of style, man those people seem like they always have it together, etc.. I don’t want to have that effect on people. I want to be one that brings smiles to faces and shares that “normal” is perfect. It doesn’t have to be so perfect to share on SM. If it makes you happy, then that’s what’s worth sharing — Realness. They’re some excellent influencers I follow that do seem to have it all together but yet they do it in such a genuine way that I actually enjoy following them. Then there is some that I’ve had to unfollow because I found myself becoming embarrassed to show my home or style because they seem to set the bar so high that I could never be that “perfect”. I want to be a reminder that SM is not a contest. It shouldn’t have to feel like a show. It’s real people – let’s share real content. Okay rant done; that got lengthy.

I started this blog asking: “Where does one start Again?” The answer is: right here, now. Don’t worry about having to explain your silence and where you have been. That’s past. What matters is that you’re here now — Begin Again.

Whatever in life you’re facing that you feel like is a hopeless intention, know it’s never too late. As long as you have breathe, it’s not too late. Don’t be so hard on yourself.